Happy 9th Birthday My Sweet Mark,

   I am an emotional wreck today. You would think that time would make this easier, and sometimes it does I guess, but not today. My memories and thoughts of you are taking over my whole being. I can’t comprehend  to this day why our family cannot be complete. How I wish that instead of these hanging on our wall we had your school and birthday pictures there.

  I will never be fine with any of this. Cancer has changed our family, we will never be the same, it is just unrealistic to have such expectations. However, if I have to give you up, I want it to be at least for something meaningful. We are an ordinary family, but if your story can change even one child’s life somehow for the better, my heart will ache a little less. Every time I visit a hospital and bring toys to the kids, I always remind myself why I am there, because you are not here. I hope that one day there will be a cure for cancer, and I will never have to visit another Pediatric Oncology Department, but until that day comes, I will be there for every single birthday that you are not here.

We love you and miss you to infinity and beyond.

Mama, Daddy, Maria and Marta.