My dear grief,

You visit me every single day. I can’t say that I am grateful to you, many nights I hate you, you keep me awake. You play with my emotions, my memories, my life.  There are times your visits leave me hopeless, angry, like a bird with broken wings. However, I do understand that you are part of me and my life. As much as I hate having you, it is important that you are here. With all the pain you bring me, you keep me connected to my son. Pain makes him real, he was here, he was mine, and it just about broke me to let him go. You do remind me everyday thought that I will always be connected to him. There is an unseen cord between us that can never be broken. So my dear grief you are an unwelcome guest in my house, but there is a reason you are there.

Sincerely,

Angel Mark’s mom

Dear Mark,

It has been two years since you left us. Two years ago your dad and I gave you your last bath in the hospital after your soul went up to heaven. We are so grateful that it was something we could do for you as your parents.  We are also thankful that doctors let us. Today we feel more connected to you than ever. You are never too far away from our thoughts.

Every night I sing to you, I kiss your picture, say a prayer for your tiny soul. I know you can hear me and see me.  We will always be connected to each other. I felt you inside me even before you entered this world and I can still feel you.

The poem below says everything I feel for you and always will.

We are connected,
My child and I, by
An invisible cord
Not seen by the eye.

It's not like the cord
That connects us 'til birth
This cord can't been seen

by any on Earth.

This cord does it's work
Right from the start.
It binds us together
Attached to my heart.

I know that it's there
Though no one can see
The invisible cord
From my child to me.

The strength of this cord
Is hard to describe.
It can't be destroyed
It can't be denied.

It's stronger than any cord
Man could create
It withstands the test
Can hold any weight.

And though you are gone,
Though you're not here with me,
The cord is still there
But no one can see.

It pulls at my heart
I am bruised...I am sore,
But this cord is my lifeline
As never before.

I am thankful that God
Connects us this way
A mother and child
Death can't take it away!

(by Unknown Author)

We love you and miss you to infinity and beyond,

Mom, Dad and Maria